What do you do when you want to run away from home during a global pandemic? I've wanted to escape before this started but now it's worse. Our house is way too small for three people and so is my marriage. Home workouts and alcohol aren't quite cutting it. I need a plan. Since this could take years, (my plan, not the pandemic) the sooner I start the better. People say the grass is always greener and I know I do run that risk so I'm feeling forced not to rush. There is also a lot to consider. I currently have no income of my own. There's not a whole lot I can do, as a practical matter, until that changes.
The plan, at the moment, involves yours truly going back to school. What for? Therein lies the rub. I need to find something for which there will be a market while at the same time be enjoyable, or at least pleasant. How's that for chutzpah? The bonus question of who's going to pay for this adventure remains to be seen. I'm hoping to be seen as a walking tax credit or possible grant recipient sine I'm a career transitioning fifty something female. I have some research to do there. Since earth ssems to be resorting to doing everything online, pursuing a master's degree shouldn't change my schedule much.
This will be an adjustment nonetheless. I took one college course in Grant writing from Camden County College a while ago and I was surprised to find out how much work was involved. Luckily, this course had no exams! Eating youe elephant one bite at a time should be a way of life by now but somehow I still find myself in need of constant reminders. I'm sure underemployment will end up being a blessing, too. There's a reason this will take years, not to mention the cash flow issue I'll have to manage. The slower the outflow, the better for us as a household.
I find myself on the verge of a new adventure. Somebody get me some courage!
Thursday, February 25, 2021
Thursday, February 11, 2021
Fighting the good fight
The announcement came and it wasn't much of a surprise. Online learning will be continued indefinitely. Honestly, I was hoping the powers that be would take this two weeks at a time. I'm trying to hang onto a little hope here! Getting comfortable with uncertainty is not my forte. If I cannot find a routine, I'll make one instead. Funny to think the routine would consist of making a list of things that will change every day.
I'm losing track of what day it is and we are a little over two weeks into a shelter in place order! I can try to steal other peoples ideas although I admit it doesn't help on the depression front. Reading about other people's kids playing board games, doing chores, reading, and learning life skills isn't helping. I live with video game and screen addicts who have gotten way too accustomed to having mom around. I have managed to drag people out for some walks and an occasional board or card game.
Luckily, I've still managed to enforce flute practice on a regular basis.
Not having a routine is becoming increasingly stressful without the gyms. I took off for the first two weeks but that was really tough. You really appreciate the old routines when they're verboten. I could also use to start looking at some tang soo do videos to remember my hyungs so when I finally do get back it won't be so bad. I was getting stir crazy after three days, now it's just management. I'm happy I found the online exercise classes and now it looks like I'm getting dragged into the world of virtual meetings. My mom, of all people, has decided we need to try it.
This whole quarantine thing is certainly producing some strange surprises. It's both comforting and annoying to have my spouse work from home every day, for example. My daughter is also, shockingly showing some initiative by occasionally getting up before me to start her schoolwork. I recently pulled out a waffle iron we got as a wedding gift and used it for the first time! Wearing masks in public, I thought, was taking things a bit too far. Now, it seems, the CDC may soon start endorsing the idea. It feels like I'm living a meme. Things couldn't get any wierder! How fucking wrong I was!!
I'm losing track of what day it is and we are a little over two weeks into a shelter in place order! I can try to steal other peoples ideas although I admit it doesn't help on the depression front. Reading about other people's kids playing board games, doing chores, reading, and learning life skills isn't helping. I live with video game and screen addicts who have gotten way too accustomed to having mom around. I have managed to drag people out for some walks and an occasional board or card game.
Luckily, I've still managed to enforce flute practice on a regular basis.
Not having a routine is becoming increasingly stressful without the gyms. I took off for the first two weeks but that was really tough. You really appreciate the old routines when they're verboten. I could also use to start looking at some tang soo do videos to remember my hyungs so when I finally do get back it won't be so bad. I was getting stir crazy after three days, now it's just management. I'm happy I found the online exercise classes and now it looks like I'm getting dragged into the world of virtual meetings. My mom, of all people, has decided we need to try it.
This whole quarantine thing is certainly producing some strange surprises. It's both comforting and annoying to have my spouse work from home every day, for example. My daughter is also, shockingly showing some initiative by occasionally getting up before me to start her schoolwork. I recently pulled out a waffle iron we got as a wedding gift and used it for the first time! Wearing masks in public, I thought, was taking things a bit too far. Now, it seems, the CDC may soon start endorsing the idea. It feels like I'm living a meme. Things couldn't get any wierder! How fucking wrong I was!!
Tuesday, February 2, 2021
Off Like a Herd of Turtles
Hopefully, I will never see anything like this is my lifetime again. We are in what has been called a "global pandemic" and the government has requested the state to "shelter in place". I am learning that this means you are trapped like a rat in your house unless you need food or medical care. My gyms have been closed as well as my daughter's school. My husband is also working from home. I am in week two, at this writing and I can only wonder how long this is going to drag on. I am having trouble figuring out what day it is. Old beasties are starting to rear their ugly heads, too.
When I had a routine that involved leaving the house, I was always late. Now that I'm home, I'm still late! I'm getting a later start since school is closed but I'm also finding that getting my ass in gear is taking forever. I'm turning into my daughter! I never thought I'd have to make this much uncertainty part of a normal way of life. I thought I was floundering before.
All this staying home is definitely getting to me. Maybe it's a lack of vitamin D, or lack of routine that's really making things difficult. The old beasts are definitely back because I don't have much room and even less equipment to work out with. I am seriously considering trying an online class just to do something. I've been dealing with a bad back for a few years now. Part of avoiding scary treatments like needles or surgery involves a lot of stretching. Some rude sit ups, push ups, and most recently squats have been added to help keep my sanity and my shape.
Recent weather hasn't been the greatest for getting out for a walk but I've managed to drag my family out anyway. The fresh air and vitamin D is probably helping or at least keeping things from getting worse. I suppose I should be grateful I haven't resorted to excessive baking. I have managed to do some unusual things like make waffles for the first time in decades. Perhaps the best way to survive this is to look for bright spots. Hopefully they'll be carbohydrate free.
When I had a routine that involved leaving the house, I was always late. Now that I'm home, I'm still late! I'm getting a later start since school is closed but I'm also finding that getting my ass in gear is taking forever. I'm turning into my daughter! I never thought I'd have to make this much uncertainty part of a normal way of life. I thought I was floundering before.
All this staying home is definitely getting to me. Maybe it's a lack of vitamin D, or lack of routine that's really making things difficult. The old beasts are definitely back because I don't have much room and even less equipment to work out with. I am seriously considering trying an online class just to do something. I've been dealing with a bad back for a few years now. Part of avoiding scary treatments like needles or surgery involves a lot of stretching. Some rude sit ups, push ups, and most recently squats have been added to help keep my sanity and my shape.
Recent weather hasn't been the greatest for getting out for a walk but I've managed to drag my family out anyway. The fresh air and vitamin D is probably helping or at least keeping things from getting worse. I suppose I should be grateful I haven't resorted to excessive baking. I have managed to do some unusual things like make waffles for the first time in decades. Perhaps the best way to survive this is to look for bright spots. Hopefully they'll be carbohydrate free.
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